Recently I got the urge to cheat again, I've been sober since 2008... but I started playing PUBG and **** got real, dead after dead, few well-earned chicken dinners; Got a rapid-fire macro on my mouse running and I quickly enjoyed overpowering punks, half chubs every time... But now, is not enough, the vein is itching and I'm craving a dose of ownage. My problem is that I will abuse it and get high every single day

... and I know for a fact that I will get banned. It has happened before

What should I do?